"I know this is not very humble or yogi of me,
but I really feel like Jana & I are bad asses right now." She said.
Me: "Are you kidding? What is yogi? is self love and appreciation not yogi?
We are so conditioned to feel GUILT when we feel good.
You have earned that warmth!"
That conversation happened a few weeks ago between Leigh and I
when an image of ours was awarded a DMWL Award for 2017.
It sat on my heart for weeks.
Why can't we even accept the fact that-
we may in fact.... be a badass.
It is so ingrained in us to feel GUILTY when we feel GOOD or PROUD.
We have been relentlessly taught that we don't have room for that emotion.
We can't be both PROUD and HUMBLE
at the same time.
We can't feel good and beautiful if somewhere deep inside
we don't really believe it 100%.
If there is one shred of doubt in our minds we fall to THAT.
We CHOOSE that.
I do it too.
We let that simple SHRED of self doubt
rob us of the mountain of joy we have in front of us.
Why does negativity weigh more on the scale
of our mind than positive self love?
Because we have given up our control.
We have given up our mental freedom for a brutal regime of self loathing.
We completely surrendered.
I mean... FUCK...
we can even win awards for that shit
and we STILL refuse to accept our beauty and power.
Because we have fallen to a belief system designed to hold us down.
We actually believe that if we aren't "perfect" ..
we don't deserve to FEEL GOOD.
We have bought into that shit so completely
that we don't even recognize it.
We don't even know we are suffocating
because it's ALWAYS been hard to breathe.
JUST FUCKING STOP.
Decide that your self worth is no longer
determined by your previous beliefs.
Start to recognize your strength..
Start to accept your worth.
Take back your power.
MUSE: Leigh Jacob